Its like 12:04 and I just finished doing my hair. Today, I'm going to see the new Bond movie. =] I hope its good. I just rewatched Casino Royale yesterday. I think its a good movie. =] My dad is fixing my car today because there was something loose in the wheel. Thank god because it start making this annoying vroom vroom noise as though I had a FOB muffler on my car. Yesterday, school was actually pretty good. I only have homework in Chemistry and Pre Cal. This weekend me and one of my best friends Nate have to pick out a science fair project. Its stupid though because we have to write three paragraphs on what we are doing when we can probably sum up whatever we are going to do in like sentence. I think something is wrong with me, I have been dizzy on and off lately and it is really annoying. Also, I find myself not wanting to eat anything for the past like week. Thats probably why I'm dizzy lately. Oh well, I rather have the dizziness then force myself to eat when I don't want to. I've also been kinda gloomy lately too. It sucks because there is nothing majorly wrong with my life right now soI don't know why I'm like this. Oh well, it will probably go away in a week or so. =P

Its like 8 am and I can't sleep. I hate when that happens. =/ I so glad though that we have no school today even though I have a shit load of homework to do. Today is report card pick up too. I hope my parents don't get pissed that I'm probably getting like 2 c's. I have been annoyed with school lately. All we do is work in 1st period. 2nd period drags a lot. Art is surprisingly fun. My fourth period is work work work though my 5th period is the opposite. I find lunch annoying because I can't stand one of my boyfriend's friend most of the time. =\ I like my 7th and 8th is ok I guess. I'm kinda mad because yesterday we were supposed to have a crime scene in the pool, but my teacher Mr. Dohm couldn't get the materials to make it because the school didn't order the stuff yet so that was gay. It was the only reason I went to school yesterday to be honest. Anyways, I'm kinda bummed out now because I was talking to my boyfriend and he made me realize I miss one of my former friends more then I realized and that kinda sucks, but oh well I guess since I can't really do anything about it. That just adds to my gloomy mood lately. I don't know, but life has been kind of boring lately and too routine for me to like it. Thats is rather annoying to be honest to be bored a lot lately and like not happy. Oh well I guess. My mom is leaving for 10 days this Sunday so I'm excited about that I guess. I'm kinda excited about going bowling today too because I haven't went lately, but I bet I will just end up not going or something. =\

So, this week was pretty hectic. My mom was in the hospital for about 5 days and my cousins slept over at my house. On Monday, I was at the hospital for about 8 freakin hours. Then, on Tuesday I went to the hospital again. On Wednesday, I tried to get my school schdule changed, but no luck. On Thursday, I went to the hospital again. On Friday, I went to a job interview and my boyfriend's orthodontist. My cousins, brother,  boyfriend, and I had a bbq. So I spent the whole week bascially with my boyfriend going to the hospital and cooking. It was pretty fun and I'm glad that I'm 90% sure I got the job. Lately, I have been feeling like my life is actually getting good and coming together quite nicely. =]

Yesterday ---
Well lets see, I woke up at 8:00 today, longer then I usually sleep. I decided to go on the computer and look for a job. I got hungry and made a pizza. Then, I took a shower. I then picked up my boyfriend and we made lasagna and peanut butter chocolate cookies. It was fun.

I'm excited for this week. My mom unfornately has surgery on Monday. I'm excited though because that means my cousins will be staying with me this weekend. =]]] I'm also excited since my cousin is having a kid and I'm going to be god mother. I'm also a bit worried. I start school in about a week and a half. I'm always so anxious for the beginning of school. Its something new like new schedules, teachers, and friends that I get anxious about. I'm also a bit angry. I have to go to church tomorrow. I hate religion. I hate being forced to do things that I don't want to do especially going to church. I'm also a bit confused about where my future will lead me. I want to go to college and have a future, but I feel like my want to leave my house at 18 will ruin any chances of going to college. I always have a constant sadness about me that i feel with never leave. I think I was born with it and will die with it whenever death comes upon me . Sometimes i just wish my life was simple like the sun. Rise at dawn and set at night. Unfornately, it won't ever be.

Today--
Well today was more fun then yesterday. I went to church with my boyfriend then we spent the day together doing things ranging from watching movies to making tacos to making cookies. I always have a lot of fun with him.

I think I am agnostic. I have over the past year ever since I went to a Catholic high school for freshman year reevalulated "my" religion. I don't think the religion makes sense. Its based upon god's love of all yet some people god has blessed with lives full of happiness while others have lives they can barely stand filled with pain and sorrow. They teach us that god loves everyone equally then why is there unfairness like that? I also hate the thought of confession. Its not the priest's business what I do with my life. Sins should be between me and "god", not a third party. I also don't trust most head figures of the church. There are many present and many many many more past scandals including Catholic clergy. I also believe that the movie "Zeigiest" and I think that movie raises a good point about the similarities among ancient religions and the Catholic faith.